Dear BOYS,

If you don't want your girlfriends to question your loyalty, then prove to her that she is the only girl in your life. How? Don't text/call/meet girls that she doesn't want you to. If you can't follow that simple rule, then you're an asshole. So don't even bother to ask why she doesn't trust you. Got a problem with that?


Sincerly yours,
MIKA

Crappy Night, huh?

My day was not that okay. Fine.. I hate it. My mom and I argued about money. I won't elaborate it here anymore. Then, I was fixing my eyebrows a while ago and accidentally cut the skin above my right brow for the second time! And now it's bleeding and I have to press cotton against it. It actually hurts a little. Aaah! A lot of crappy things happened tonight. I was about to brush my teeth when I realized I've put the wrong toothbrush inside my mouth. I almost used it. I looked myself in the mirror and realized.. "Why the hell am I holding a green toothbrush?! Damn! It's my cousin's! Mine's blue!" Ahh boo, gross. And after brushing my teeth, I felt thirsty so I filled my glass with water from the pitcher. When I drank it, I felt a plastic inside my mouth and checked my glass... Voila! Plastics floating inside my glass! Okay, fine it's actually my fault. I think I forgot to rip off all the plastic wrapping the ice a while ago.. What a night. Good thing, Jamillons' music is putting me into a good mood. I was planning to pack my things for my flight next week but then I can't find my pink bag. I guess I just have to look for it tomorrow. My room is a complete mess now. Thanks to my cousin, Nariki who left a lot of crushed cookies on my floor. And besides, its already almost 12 midnight. I have to hit the sack in a while. Hope tomorrow will be a good day!

Mika: Bheib, I think were meant to be.


Brent: You think?! I am sure!!!

Mika: I have a trivia.


Brent: What?

Mika: Our blood types are compatible and our zodiac signs too, even though its always arguing because of different personalities. They're better off together daw than being alone.


Brent: Ikaw talaga mahal. May trivia din ako sayo.


*I didn't reply.


Brent: Hoy!!!

Mika: Ayaw.


Brent: Hoy, May trivia sabi eh!!!


Mika: Wala ako panahon sa kalokohan mo.


Brent: May trivia nga eh! May trivia! May trivia!

Mika: Oh sige, mag hunos dili ka. Ano yun?


Brent: Based on my mind, lumalaki ka daw. Dati hanggang balikat lang kita pero ngayon nasa isip na kita. Wahaha. At based on my heart, lumiilit ka daw dahil dati nasa isip kita, ngayon naman nasa puso na kita. Wahaha.

Mika: John Lloyd ikaw ba yan? Haha.


Brent: Wahaha. Hindi no. Laro tayo plants vs. zombies. Ikaw ang zombie para habang kinakain mo ako, tinitira naman kita. Wahahaha. Wahaha. :-D

Mika: May pagnanasa ka talaga sakin. Maybe you like me.


Brent: Wahaha. Hindi no. Ikaw? Napakataray mo para magustuhan ko. You're not my type :-P

Mika: Talaga? You don't like me?


Brent: I don't like your pagiging maarte. Mataray kung minsan na wala sa lugar. Spoiled brat. Mahilig mag complain but doesn't know how to follow advices. But despite of all your bad traits.. everytime I think of you.. wala akong makitang reason para di ka mahalin.

The rest is history.

I need some Positivity

It seems like everyone still got a hang over about Valentine's. Too much hype, you think so? And me, I still haven't get a message from my boyfriend. No hi, no hello. I am trying to be happy today though. It's my baby cousin Nariki's first birthday. We'll be having a small celebration with some tita's close friends. I slept 3AM last night and woke up around 11AM. I went outside to buy drinks, paper plates and brunch for me and my tita. Snow is gone. It's actually pretty sunny today. The weather is good. Tita and Nariki went to the salon to have his first haircut. I'm pretty excited to see the outcome. 

I was chatting with my mom and cousin, Joanne last night. They told me my cousin, Ryan is getting married on the 26th of this month. It's just a civil wedding. It will take place at some restaurant in Manila. They told me to go. I am not sure yet since my best friend and I have plans on that night but the wedding will be on the afternoon so there's no conflict. Well, I'll just think about it. Lazy me, huh? But I am really happy for him. I know its his dream and he really loves his girlfriend and I also heard that they're expecting their second baby. 

Last night, I questioned God. "Why everyone seems having a good life except me?" Of course, I didn't get an answer. I tried to be positive and mumbled to myself.. "I guess God is still writing the best love story for me" and from now on, I try not to be negative. Good things happen for those who wait like what I'm always saying.

Cheers to couples who are getting married this year!
Baby dust to everyone!

ENVIOUS ME? YESSS!

Hmmm, I feel so lonely tonight. My friends who are in a relationship posted their pictures with their boyfriends while they're on their Valentine dates on Facebook. Life is so unfair. I've never felt this way. It is just so sad. Please lets end this night!!! Fast forward please?


I don't deserve this! 

Happy(?) Valentine's Day!

First of all, Happy Valentine's day to all of you! I hope you had a love-filled day. 

So what happened to me this day? As usual, I am dateless. No roses, chocolates and love letter but it doesn't matter. It's just a day and thank God it is about to end in few hours. Ha! But I made my mom happy today. I asked my best friend to buy red roses for me and deliver it to our condominium in Paranaque. Well, she forgot that I was asking her to buy red roses but instead bought white and pink ones. I was kind of hesitant to go for white roses 'cause for me white roses are for our loved ones who passed away. But anyway, I guess my mom didn't mind 'cause she didn't say anything or it's just me.. whatever. So yeah, the dumb guards in our condominium don't want to deliver the roses to our penthouse. *shaking my head. And my best friend who has been shy around my family all the time.. of course, don't want to give it by herself. Well, when I called her up, she was with someone.. Yes, a guy named J... I forgot but I remember the name starts with J. Right, it was J. Anyway, I assume my cousin (I am really assuming its my cousin, Raymond) was driving our red Chevrolet and he was with my sister, Misa. The J guy handed the roses to my sister. Good stuff.

After few minutes, I called up our home and talked to my mom. It was obvious that she was holding her tears when I was talking to her. She was sort of speechless at first and just thanked me. I asked her if she liked it, she said yes. And asked her if it's beautiful (I have no idea how the bouquet looks like) she said "okay lang..". And I said "Okay lang?!" She laughed and said "Maganda.. Yung dalawa mong kapatid dito, hindi man lang ako binati." I said "okay lang yun" and tried to change the topic. I told her to chat me in facebook and I hung up.


She chatted me in facebook and said something like this (not exact) "Mika thanks sa flowers. Akala ko nakalimutan mo na ako batiin. Hindi ko ineexpect na may flowers pa. Kahit bati lang okay na ako. Naiiyak na ako."


And the rest is history.

I am happy 'cause I made my mom happy but honestly, I am not entirely happy and I guess you know why. My boyfriend greeted me once today and never texted me again. I know, he hates Valentines 'cause of what happened to us years ago. He actually texted me something like this "I feel like giving you flowers. Haha." I didn't reply but the message sounds like an insult for me. I don't know if it's just me or whatever... It's almost 9PM already but he hasn't texted me yet. I am getting worried.


I'm jealous of my best friend. She sounds like so happy when I was talking to her over the phone. She told me she got a date. I didn't ask who's the victim (lol) but I am happy that she's happy today.


Another dateless, flower-less, chocolate-less, letter-less Valentine's day for me.
I'm wondering what will happen next Valentine's? *sigh


Anyway, shout out for my best friend for making this surprise happen! I owe ya a lot. 

The NERVEEEEE!

I've been dealing with heartaches lately. I'm thinking it maybe just an effect of paranoia but my heart says the opposite thing. I am severely hurt and no one could take this pain but the person who caused this same shit. Ugh! Yeah and that's my boyfriend. He's been treating me so different lately.. or is it just me? No! It's really different. He's cold as an ice. He declined every time I want to have an "us" time. What the hell is wrong with him? As far as I remember, this shit started since he started talking to the girl he used to like before we became a couple and he also told me he likes someone else in his office. And now he isn't replying to any of my text messages. I am guessing that he went to the "anniversary party" of their company. He texted me a while ago that his office mate  called him a while ago and told him that he NEEDS to attend the party. Yeah, right! Gaad, I am so mad!

Inferiority Complex

I am trying to de-stress myself but how can I do that when problems occur in daily basis? The boyfriend and I always argue even on small things. Most of the time, we don't jive anymore. There are times that he's in office for the whole day so he can't really text which is of course, I totally understand. When he gets home at night, he'll fall asleep early 'cause he's tired which is I guess is understandable too. But of course, knowing myself, sometimes I feel sad that my boyfriend has no time for me. Even though his reasons are valid enough. Well, I guess that's just me being melodramatic. He knows what I feel but I don't really want to push him to this.. to have more time for me because he needs to work and I am proud of him because he's being independent. As what he says, he's working for us, for our future but it doesn't matter.. I mean I don't really mind if he's working for us or not. The main point is.. he's working hard for the future. Whether I belong to that "future" or not. We can never say but I am hoping. 


Lately, I am thinking.. Uhmm, boyfriend and I are not a good match. I mean, we love each other and stuff but were so opposite. He's good looking and I am not. He's a degree holder and I am not. He's rich and I am not. I am nothing compared to most of his past girlfriends which is of course belongs to the same social circle. Everytime I think of this things, I can't help but to cry and let my insecurities arise. I am just a girl. 


I personally never met my boyfriend's family yet. He wanted me to but I always tell him I am not ready yet.. 'till they went back to their native land. And I guess if the boyfriend would ask me the same thing, I would also answer him the same thing I did two years ago. Were on our 6th year already.. but I don't think I am ready to meet his family. I am just scared they won't like me for their son. There is nothing to like about me. I am just.. nothing.


I am not the Mika they think I am. No one really knows my real background. I lied about myself. I am scared no one could accept me. I don't think someone could understand me. I am so ashamed of myself. People would just judge me, I am sure of that...

I am a drama queen...

I feel so terrible tonight. I am so sad and depressed. I have so many problems but I don't know how to solve it. I want to talk to someone but I got no one. My boyfriend thinks I am just making all this dramas. How crappy is that. I feel so sorry 'cause he thinks of me that way. So officially, I got no one. No one cares for me. No one ever wants to listen to my "dramas"...

Just have faith

I'm having a bad day... My boyfriend and I are fighting. I won't elaborate anymore the details. I just hate it. I had a hard time sleeping last night. I slept around 3AM already. I was crying because I'm so hurt. Boys are mean... *sigh Is it really possible for a guy to be contented with one girl? I hope so. I'm not doubting or something. I'm just opening my mind to any possibilities. 


Anyway, I feel envious today. My friends are posting their college grad pictures already on their facebook page. I wish I'm one of them. Partly, its my fault because I kind of slacked off during college. I didn't really take it seriously but I'm about to graduate too in a year (I transferred school and shifted course). But I guess graduating from college is like the least thing I could do for now. Because of our situation, I don't think my mom could send me off to school. Not now, maybe next time. I hope so. I still have a sister who's also in college and other one is about to graduate grade school in incoming school year. So yeah, after all... my mom doesn't trust me anymore about me going to college. I had bad grades twice, who would want to spend money for my education, right? I totally understand.


The only option left for me is for me to get a job, save some money and maybe someday I could send my ass off to school. A lot of hard work is needed. I'm wishing a good health for myself so I could reach my goals. I've been feeling sick lately.. I wish it's nothing serious. I can't afford to get sick. 


Life is unfair. It was never fair but I have faith in God. I know He has better plans for me and my loved ones. I just have to wait. This is how I also set my mind when it comes to my relationship with my boyfriend. Great things will happen to those people who wait and I'm one of them. I'm waiting for him and it's worth it even though we have a lot of misunderstandings. Because of all the trials God has given us, we won't be as strong as we are now. 


I believe that good things will happen to me and my loved ones, again..

Sad Valentine's

Today was uhm, a good day and a bad one too. Good because my blood test turned okay. I have no diabetes! Yay. I'm so glad. I was hella scared for the past couple of weeks. I've been experiencing migraine and body ache for the past two days. I was thinking maybe because my blood sugar is high or something but well it wasn't but my blood pressure is high. I'm not sure though 'cause I used the machine one. They say its not that accurate so whatever. I tried three kinds of pain killers already but it didn't work on me. The third one did a little but the pain is still here. I'm thinking maybe my hormones are acting up crazy again 'cause my menstruation is just about to end. 


I really feel sad and disappointed tonight. I was texting with my beloved boyfriend a while ago and told him that Valentine's is getting near. He told me that I shouldn't remind him of Valentine's. My heart got hurt. See, I know it's my fault but it was freaking 5 years ago! Why does he have to always bring it up to me during this love month? Is it that bad? *sigh


Okay.. Five years ago. Two months after we officially became couple.. I kind of ditched him on Valentine's itself. We were suppose to have a date somewhere in Makati. He told me to meet him up in a mall in Alabang area after my classes but I didn't show up. Our relationship wasn't serious that time. Were just starting to get to know each other. I don't love him yet and I am sure the feeling is mutual.

I was terribly sorry about that but every February.. he always brings it up as if I did a crime. I feel like crying tonight. I just want him to buy blue roses on that day and bake some cookies for me even were not together but I guess it won't happen 'cause like what he have said, I shouldn't mention it again.


I guess I just have to deal with it. Suffer every February 14. I'm the luckiest girl because I got someone so special like him but I think I'll be the saddest girl on Valentine's because my boyfriend doesn't want to celebrate it with me.. just because of a childish, stupid mistake I did five years ago.

I want this

tiara and hairstyle.

Mika: Do you sometimes hate me?

Brent: Yeah, why?

Mika: Don't you love me anymore?

Brent: I do love you damn much.

Mika: Really? Like you want to marry me?

Brent: I always want to marry you. 

Never ako nag-propose sa isang girl 

other than you.

Mika: Really? Why?

Brent: Kasi ngayon lang ako naging sigurado

sa babae.

Alam kong magiging masaya ako sayo.

Mahal kita Mika. 

Mahal na mahal.

Pics from my phone. Very Random.

My sister with her big tummy. Haha.

Misa in Violet

Legs kung legs!

Mina striking a pose.

I personally like this shot.

But this one is my
favorite.
Mama facebook-ing. Lol!

First Child

Expecting your first child could be a negative or positive thing. It could be depressing because first, you were not ready to have a child but I just laugh it off when I hear such stories. First, haven't you heard of safe sex? Condoms are cheaper compare to motel rates, right? Just a realization. No offense to those people who are reading this. Just an opinion. Peace yo. Admit that you're just irresponsible or maybe not knowledgeable enough about the deed. Try some reading if sex really interests you. Enough of that. I'm somewhat ranting already. Heehee. And yeah, it could also be a good thing because you're maybe one of the couples who are wishing to have that cute little bundle of joy. And I'm one of the latter part. I mean, I was a baby everyone was waiting for. I was the first child of my father and mother and also the first grandchild of my paternal side. I have a cousin who is around my age too but she was born four months after I was so technically I am still the first grandchild. (Oh yeah...) And also I am the first baby who has mixed ethnicity. Both sides. So pretty exciting huh? I look totally like my father. Eyes, eyelashes, nose, lips, ears, eyebrows.. I all got it from him. I don't look like a man, okay? I am his girl version *wink and I've been always proud of that. I wish I also got  his brain too *sob He's a math wizard and I am not. I always flunk with math. There are sayings that if a baby looks like his father, it means the baby's mother loves the baby's father so much and vice versa so people were telling me that maybe my mother loves my father so much because I look like him. Tahaha. Okay, maybe. I mean, I don't know if its true. I am not really a fan of such sayings but I am sure that my mother loves my father until this very moment. *drama