2011 were ready!

Few hours to go and it will be a brand new year for me, for us. I am not wishing a lot of things for 2011. I just want my mom to be happy and be strong for the coming years without dad. Hope we could put up a good business, so we could have a stable income. I am not expecting us to be "rich" like we used to, just enough.. to survive. For me, I hope I could go back to school and perhaps find some job and yeah, more years for me and my boyfriend. That's it.


Happy New Year everyone :)

Egg White Mask

I've been seeing this

on youtube

and read some articles

about it online

so yeah, 

I gave it a try.

It's a facial mask

called Egg White Mask.

Yes,

just pure egg white.

It was so GOOD.

100000000%!

I am not exaggerating

or something.

My skin is usually sensitive

and it is hard for me

to find products that give me

satisfaction but this

one is a must-try.

After I rinsed it off,

my skin is so smooth

and it tightens my pores.

I have really huge pores.

Now, I barely see it.

Try it!

Facts that you may not know about me

I dislike APPLES,

I don't know why.

Most of the people

think I am Chinese.

Sample scenario:

: Kilala mo si Mika 'diba?

: Oo, yung instik.

I've actually studied in a 

Catholic school for 8 years

.. and won first place

in a competition called

Bible Buster.

(Yesssss.... I know.)

I religiously always pray at night.

No matter how sleepy I am.

I love love love

dark chocolates

and also the white ones.

I got crazy over

BLUE (boy band)

especially to Duncan James

and I actually joined

a raffle draw and won

a poster with their autographs.

Manicure doesn't last

a week for me.

I always wanted to

be a doctor

but I can't imagine

myself studying Medicine

for almost 10 years.

I love sleeping

on my stomach

which is bad.

It is unhealthy.

Speaking of stomach,

I have a very sensitive tummy.

I can't eat street food

without running to the

toilet room after...

I'm allergic to shrimps.

I love reading

news online.

I am a camwhore.

I feel naked without

earrings.

I love mushrooms.

I want to put in almost

everything I cook.

I can eat bacons

for breakfast, lunch and dinner

everyday.

I can whistle 

like a man.

I don't like

crossing my legs.

I don't like people 

who do that either.

I usually don't use

blush on 'cause

my cheeks are usually reddish

which is unhealthy.

#1 in my heart

I can't believe that it has been 9 months

since papa left us.

3 months to go

and we will be celebrating his death anniversary.

Celebrate?

That is not even the right term.

He reminds me of so much things

specially now that I am in Japan.

Like what I've mentioned in my

previous post,

I always remember him whenever

I go to the playground.

Every time I will be eating noodles,

in my heart I can hear

him saying..

"hurry and eat your noodles

before it gets cold"

Like what he always tells me

when he was still around.

Back in the Philippines,

his home office was next to my bedroom.

Every time he is finished with

his work and go out 

of his home office,

he would be slowly opening my door

and check if I am still awake.

I've been discovering a lot

of unpleasant things about him,

about what he did..

I admit it hurts the hell out of me

but 

he's still my papa

and no matter what,

I always want to be like him.

I am fighting..

but no ones fighting for me.

I need to be strong,

but where can I get my strength?

I am so hurt.

I can't complain.

I could only cry.. when no one is watching.

I am all by myself.

I am alone.

So alone.

Yes, I am so FULL

and I am a fuckin' OBESE now

Help!!!

5 years and counting!

December 28, 2010.

Our 5th anniversary.

I can't believe it!

I never thought I could stay in a relationship this long.

I can't believe it more that my boyfriend

is no other than Brent.

The dude I met in the Philippines

chased by a lot of girls and ehem, gays.

To you Mister Meng,

you know how much I love you.

Be a good boy, 'hmmkay?
YOU ARE MINE.

Happy happy 5th anniversary!

Hope 2011 is for us!

(I know it will be, have faith)

I love youuuuuu!

James Reid

I have a thing for halfies

(I'm a halfie, myself)

Oh, James *drools*

Isn't he so hot?

He got abs but he needs to work out more!

He's too skinny :P

I don't own this picture.

I just got this from his facebook fan page.

Home Remedies

I've been researching about home remedies for stretch marks, acne and hair lately. Googling and youtube-ing. I don't think I've put extra pounds but I feel bloated recently. Poor diet. And its because its winter, season of dry skin.. my stretch marks are freakin' visible! No one could see it but me but it is such an eyesore. I don't even want to see my naked body in the mirror. It is so disgusting, aahh! And I can't understand, I normally have clear and fair skin but since when I got here in Japan, I am starting to have breakouts. Yes, huge breakouts! It is so depressing. I am not even kidding. Well, putting aside the negative ones. Here's a good news. Bad hair days are gone. My hair is starting to get really long and healthy. It's getting thick. I have really short hair for the past few years. Not really short but usually, medium length but it appear shorter in the front because I always like my hair cut in layers. 

Back to stretch marks and acne. My aunt gave me bio-oil. It's kinda expensive and hard to find. You have to order it online because I don't think they sell it in drugstores or beauty stores. It doesn't only work for stretch marks. It is also used for dehydrated skin, prevention for aging skin, uneven skin tone and reducing scars. I've stopped using it for weeks now just because I feel lazy. Heehee. But I used to put in my belly area, hips, thighs, breasts and legs where stretch marks usually appear. It is also good for prevention that is why I am putting all those areas. I've read testimonials in several forums about bio-oil and it has really good feedbacks so I might as well, give it a try again and who knows? It might work for me :-) Wish me luck!

Acne. Acne. Acne. How can I get rid of you? Ahhh! You made me suffer back in puberty stage. Why are you getting back on me again?! *sighs* Maybe this is due to climate change and I am not using the usual facial wash I was using for the past few years back in the Philippines. I maybe a little exaggerating. Well.. yeah.. I think I am. I got few pimples on my forehead. Really tiny red bumps around 5. And some on the side of my right eye. 


I think that was last month. I got really freak out because in between my brows, there were flaky white skin. I was really scared, I can't even go to sleep. I waited my aunt to wake up and asked her if she could bring me to a dermatologist. I was really scared because my late father used to have psoriasis. It's a skin disease and yes, hereditary. My mom told me that my dad was diagnosed having it when he was in his 20's and I am in my freakin' 20's! Who could blame me? So yeah, we went to the doctor and he told me its definitely not a psoriasis. It's just dry skin due to the cold/dry season. He instead ruled out that I have acne and gave me a topical gel named Dalacin T. And it sucks. It didn't work. Now, I am using a medicine named Acuatim cream 1%. My mom gave it. Hope it works. It actually dried out my pimples but it is still there. Hope it would be gone in days or fine, weeks. *crossed fingers* I'm using moisturizers to keep my face hydrated. Pond's double white moisturizers work wonders for me. *two thumbs up* and I am also doing a DIY facial mask. I put yogurt on my face. Leave it for around 20 minutes and wash it off after. It feels good after. Try it!

It's 2 AM.

I need to sleep.

Teehee!

Grandpa

Kichiro Ishikawa

He's my paternal grandfather.

I have limited memories of him

because he passed away

when I was just 9.

But I remember him

crying everytime my sister Misa

and I visit him.

I wonder if..

he already met his son up there?

Better days

It isn't that chilly tonight, so I decided to go outside and have some fresh air. There is a playground in front of our condominium but there are a lot of little boys playing so I just went to the playground in the next street. As usual, there are no kids but old people with their dogs. I went to the swing.


Until I started to cry.


My papa used to bring me to the playground when I am still very young. I remember him pushing me so the swing could "swing" faster. 


Then I saw a telephone booth nearby. My younger sister, Misa and I used to call papa whenever were outside. Asking permission if we could eat icecream.




Those were the days. Better days.

Mika: What if I am not the right girl for you?

Brent: Then I will make you the right girl for me.

Mika: Pwede ba yun?

Brent: Yeah but if I can't, I will just make myself the wrong guy so were right for each other.

IM SO JEALOUS!

Frustrated fashion designer

So yeah..

I made this top.

I really find it cute XD

I think I need to undergo an anger management program. Seriously. I am so mad now. It feels like I could chop off anyone's head now.

Present from Mama

My mom gave this necklace

and pendant when

she was here in Japan

last week.

Its carved with images of

Mother Mary and baby Jesus

and Sto. Nino.

It's a 24K gold.

Beauty gurus

I got addicted to two fashion gurus. I've been watching their videos for two days. Heehee


Here's their links, please watch! :) They're the greatest.

Lindy Tsang aka Bubzbeauty - North Irish born Chinese who is now residing in HongKong. She's cute and very witty. She's not all about make ups, fashion, etc. I find her very sensible and brainy. She's is very very very funny too. She has actually also have her own comedy channel named bubbiosity <--check it out and have a good laugh! :)

Rose Russo aka Rosebud143 - Italian-Filipino based in Canada. She's so sexxaaayyy and very pretty. She's not just about beauty. She also plays piano and loves cooking.










I learned a lot from them. From hair to skin care :) Super love them. Yay!

2011 please be kind to me!

Last year, before the year ends.. I was thinking if 2010 will be a good year for me but it turned out total opposite. I lost my father, stopped going to school, experienced financial crisis, been unhealthy and left Philippines. So yeah, it was a total disaster but.. some good things still happened. Just few. My boyfriend and I are still together. In a week, we will be celebrating our 5th anniversary and some stuff..


Uhh, actually.. I realized that my boyfriend is the only GOOD thing that happened to me this year. Anyways, I'm wishing to almighty God that HOPEFULLY 2011 will be a better year for me. Please, please, please. I deserve it. 


First, I want to go back to Philippines. 2nd, I want to go back to school. Fine, I know it would be impossible to go back to CSB but okay, please just let me enroll to ANY school. I want to finish college SERIOUSLY. 3rd, if its possible, i need a JOB. Promise I won't be picky *beautiful eyes*


And I freakkiiiinnnnn want to see my BOYFRIEND! PHHUUU-LLLEEEZZZEEE? *beautiful.eyes.again*






Promise, I will study hard. Promise, I will be a responsible sister. Promise, I will be a good daughter. Promise, I will behave na. 






PLEASEEEEEEEEE~~~ !!!

Chrome for a Cause

I've actually raised 250 tabs :)

Make ups, hair spray, moisturizers, curling & straightening iron,
combs, nail polish, 
perfumes. Ahhh~ life is sweet

Me with cute ear muffs

I miss you so much :(

Once upon a time.. there's a bitch.

Let me tell you a story. I used to have this college buddy whom I was really close to. We were doing okay. She was nice and all that but later on, I knew it.. she's a bitch! No, she isn't the type of girl who would sleep with a lot of men. Slut would be the right term for it. She's a B-I-T-C-H because she's a traitor, back fighter, PLASTIC. I hate her, seriously. I still talk to her, though but I don't think we could close as we used to be.. after all. I just really get super annoyed of her facebook statuses. She keep on telling that its so hard to find true friends nowadays. It's so hard to trust. Blah blah. C'mon girl, why don't you be a "true friend" first before finding some "true friends" for yourself? It doesn't make sense, honey. And one time, she was hella mad to her "friend" because as far as I remember, that friend of hers borrowed money from her and hasn't paid yet. I was like "hello? ikaw nga may utang sakin eh. Di mo mabayaran eh. Kung makaparinig ka dun sa friend mo, parang di mo gawain" but of course, I didn't tell her that. Hahaha. I pity her. She doesn't deserve a friend.

1 week and a day more

Me me me at the moment!

It was sort of a productive day for me. Did the laundry and hung them to dry. Repeat. Washed the dishes. Repeat. Organized my cabinet. Mission accomplished. I just finished taking a refreshing bath. I'm still in my robe. I'm still a little lazy to dress up. I'll be hitting the groceries later. 


8 days before Christmas. Gaah! I can't believe it. I can't feel it. Oh well, I am in Japan. Christmas isn't celebrated as much it is in Philippines. I wish I could be with my loved ones. Next year, for sure!

Happy Birthday sweetlove :)

It was my mom's flight going back to the Philippines this morning and too bad, I wasn't able to drop her off at the airport 'cause I wasn't really feeling good. *sigh* I miss her now. She's really experiencing severe depression now and I don't know how to make feel her good. There is no easy way but I want to make her happy even just for a second. I want to go back to Philippines as soon as possible because I heard that my cousin, Grace is planning to go abroad next month. She's the only one my mom could ask help for and now that she'll be leaving soon, I need to get my ass back in the Philippines and be the one to fix whatever she left. 


I went to the church a while ago. Simbang gabi (first night). I wish I could complete it.
Lord, hear my prayers.


Tomorrow is my boyfriend's 26th birthday! And I'm excited more than he does. Haha. I think people who is in 20's and up is not excited anymore of their birthdays because birthday only means getting old. Right? I feel the same way every Sept 10. But anyways, I'm excited because his birthday is special to me. Dec. 16, 1984 - the right guy for me was born on this date :)

Boredom!

Kitkat for the win!

Just messing with the christmas decor. Haha!

Trying to smile :P