Surprisingly weak.

Problems occur when you thought everything
is in its perfect condition.
And most of the time,
problems occur time to time
and hell yes, it sucks bigtime.


Everything change, so do I.
But I hope the world turn
into a better place
not a universal dump site.


I feel sad and emotionally
exhausted because of
all the problems I am
encountering recently.


But I can't give up
because there are some
people who need me,
like the way I need to the
people I truly care about.


My mom turned into
a monster.
My friends AGAIN
bitchslapped me.
My dear boyfriend is
in real pain now.


I even tried
breaking up with my boyfriend a while ago.
Yes, stupid much?
But I don't know what came
up to my mind that time.
Im just felt surprisingly weak.


Good thing,
he didn't give up :)
I love him so much..
And yes, we'll fight again
and get through with this all
holding hands..
side by side.. :)

My feelings 'bout Porsche and Brent

Top view: Porsche
Auto show @ MOA

Another shot from the top.

I don't have a nice shot of the Porsche
but I instantly fell in love with it
a while ago.
It looks like a girl friendly type of car
although it came along with
a series of racing cars.
So I really don't know,
because I have less knowledge about cars.
Haha.



So yea, it's already past 2AM
and I couldn't sleep yet.
As usual, I've been thinking about
"stuffs".
Ughhh, I really don't know.


Brent and I were talking
smoothly a while ago when
suddenly he stopped talking.
I asked him why. There might be a problem.
I was worried but he said he was just
thinking of Mike, his "friend".



I don't know if I'll believe him or what
because at the back of my mind,
there is something that is saying
that there is something more than
what he said.


I don't know.
Another sleepless night.




Bad night.

A day with Ish and Jade :>

Jade so epal! Hahaha!

Camwhoring while
waiting for Ish and Jade to

finish their businesses at the cubicle.
Haha!

Haagen Dazs' yummy fondue!

Jade fell asleep while waiting
for the order.

Ish still not deciding what to order!

The menu.

Jade and I. Haha!
Look at our eyes!
Whose got the bigger eyebags?

Me me me
while waiting *drool*

Ish, Jade and I went to Mall of Asia
to buy some stuff and eventually
my sister and I decided to try
the yummy-looking Haagen Dazs' fondue!
It is worth almost PHP800
and yea, it was really yummy yet sinful.
Too much for a sweet tooth!

Cute Lil Angels were Born :>

My three highschool friends were pregnant this year.
Krixia just gave birth to Chesca Marie last month
and Thea just gave birth this week to Summer Alize.
And on October, Tin will give birth to Kaylee Elisha.

All girls, huh? :>
Hihi.


I wish I could have mine too.
Tagal kasi ni Brent, pota :-P




I'm so happy for the new mommies! :>

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I went to Greenbelt 3 with Ish, my younger sister
and watched the movie,
The Time Traveler's Wife.

We originally wanted to watch G.I. Joe
but the movie already started when we got there.

We thought TTTW would be a boring movie.
Well, the movie poster looks like *winks*
Looks could be deceiving, per se.


But then,
the lead actress there is Rachel McAdams (Hotchick, The notebook, bla bla)
So on the second thought,
the movie might be a good one.

And yes,
I was right.
It was a very good movie.

You better watch it! *smile*

Bebe Deighl, Ninang Loves You! :)

I can't help myself but to post this pics
of my uber cute nephew! :3


He's Edward Deigniel Lim.
And he's turning 1 on Sept 8!
Exactly 2 days before my bday.
Can't wait to see him! <333

It's already past midnight.
I don't feel good, my stomach is trumbling.
My eyes are getting sore.
But yet.. I can't sleep.
I am thinking of him.
Thinking of us. *sigh*


Hope we could make this relationship last.
I love him so much.
I don't ever want to lose him :(

My want's.

• Mika wants to see her boyfriend now.
• Mika wants to have her own baby.
• Mika wants to bake a cake.
• Mika wants to cry because of a bitch!
• Mika wants to eat vanilla ice cream from Japan.
• Mika wants to have a vacation in Bahamas or in Barabados, whichever.
• Mika wants to dance again!
• Mika wants to slap her face.
• Mika wants to have more cash in Friends for Sale but no one is buying her as of the moment. No one loves her!
• Mika wants to go back to Hongkong and do some shopping <3333
  
• Mika wants to read a book but she's too lazy to read one.
• Mika wants to know why everything that is happening right now is actually happening!
• Mika wants to die, actually.
• Mika wants to be happy.

Complex.

Here I am feeling blue again, as always.
Random thoughts are running now in my restless mind.

I am scared to laugh,
to smile,
to be happy
because I'm thinking
that most of the things
have something in
exchange.


What if after the smiles,
here comes the tears?
I don't want it.


So I rather not smile..
So there would be no pain in exchange.
Or maybe I could cry all night long,
so tomorrow will be a happy day?



Life is complicated,
and I made it more complicated.



Sweet Lord,
tell me what to do now..


Problems with a so-called friend,
then now here comes the..
flirty girl who wants to
steal my boyfriend.


I'm so depressed
and I need some booze!




Help me.



Shit.

Outdated but I just want to share this.

I think it was early this year when I went to Tagaytay
with some of my relatives and with my two siblings.

It was a memorable day.
A tiring one though
but it's all worth it.

Everyone thinks Philippines lost its beauty
but heck, they were wrong.

You saw the pictures already.
Be the judge.


Philippines will always be my home sweet home :)

He's mine!

I just stopped crying.
Geez, how I hate flirty girls! *so mad!*
Okay, here's the story.
My boyfriend, Brent has an acquaintance in my school.
So he asked a favor.. That is to check me out at the campus
and tell him if I did something foul..
a good example is, if ever she'll catch me talking to an opposite gender.
Double duh, right?
So there.. she accepted it and after that,
she kept calling and calling to my boyfriend!
And I sensed something was wrong
and boy, I was right!
A while ago, she confessed to my boyfriend
that she likes him and asked if they could
know each other more.
Boo. What a bitch!
Ima tell you this, no one could take away Brent from me!
He's mine, all mine.

It's about her.

Jade and I were supposed to meet up at BF McDo this morning
but I wasn't able to go because there was no cab!
And I was experiencing the usual nausea *sigh*
So I just went back to our home and took a rest
but I was able to see her in the hospital.
I accompanied her to her check up.
The doctor advised her that she's experiencing pre-mature labor
and of course, it's a bad news.
So she has to take a 2 week bed rest.
And on September 1,
she is scheduled to have an ultrasound.
I'm excited to know if it is a baby girl or a boy!
As long as the baby is normal and healthy,
I'll be fine.


Hope she could have a safe delivery :)

Birthday Sex <3

Lss super! Birthday Sex.
Hahaha.
Check out the video!

So what's up?
What happened today?
Hmmm.
Nothing really. I just went to the mall to get my new eye glasses.
So far, I am loving it.

Tomorrow, I'd be meeting up with Jade at BF McDo
and go to the SSS office nearby.
She'll be fixing some required documents.
Her ObGyne told her to take another bed rest for two weeks.
Too bad for her.

is bored and problematic
but still has the courage
to smile
as long as he's around <3

I'm so into him... YAY!

Time: 10:34 PM
Talking to my boyfriend, Brent.
So I know what to diba?
Shut this effin' laptop and go to my room.
KKKKK!



He's shouting na!
So I gotta gooooo!
Mwah!

Some things that make me uber happy!

Simple Japanese dinner with my family :>

My babies! Xienie and Gon Chan playing around.

My shih tzu, Xienie!

Hello kitty stuff! My hello kitty mirror. Hello kitty make up pouch. Lotion, bla bla. This is actually my school bag.

Ohh well, MM told me that first term is extended until the second week of September because of I don't know why. Maybe because of the swine flu.

Anyways, today was a fine day except that I had a very terrible headache this morning. My dad told me to go see a doctor for eyes and check if there's something wrong. Because eye problems also have connections in our headaches so I did what he advised. And boo ya, he was right. My astigmatism went high. Errrrr!


Please doctors, gimme a break. So then after that, my friend Jade went here for the usual Saturday bonding here in our condo. I made Promodoro for our dinner. Jade and my aunt told me it was perfect. Hihihi. Chef Mika, here you come! *smile* I also ate vanilla ice cream. Awww, it totally made my night! :>

Tell me what's missing.

I've been thinking lately if I should be already contented with my life or not.
Listen to my story, and please free to justify.


I am from a good family.
A very good one.
We can't say were uber wealthy but heck, were rich.
This is all honesty, listener.
My dad is an executive in an international company
and I could get all I want.
Yes, all I want.
But I am not that really spoiled
because dad wants to challenge me first before
giving me something that I want.


For example,
I have to present him good grades before
buying me a new ipod.
Stuff like that, you know.


But that's not really what I want.
It's not that I am not thankful.
Of course I am.
But I want a dad who I could go fishing with,
or maybe I could commute with.




I am studying in one of the prestigious schools in the Philippines
and our school has the highest tuition fee offered.
I'm getting a good education.
So?


Yea, I maybe in a the highest society
but the heck,
do you have any idea how fake these people are?
In this kind of crowd,
no money, no friends.
no social life, you're a retard.
BOOO.





I always experience "special treatment"
by people who are "simple".



Gimme a break,
I am also a human.
Treat me like one!




I always have the privilege to eat at fancy restaurants
and even buffets from a 5 star hotel.


And yes,
I can't even eat my favorite fishballs and the yummy isaw
because it's dirty daw.





So tell me? What's missing?

People that I'll always miss. (Will be updated again)

Melanie Grace Ramos

Ma. Angelica Reynoso

Jade Centeno

Ma. Iana Mulingbayan

Bernadette Lirio

Friendship lasts a minute or so.

Jade (closest friend ever!) and I

Badet, Charmaine and Meeee!

Iana, Me, Ara and Nika

Iana and Me again. Ara's face was blurry. (Ugh.)

My ideal friend is myself. I know how true I am. I maybe really clingy, or maybe a miss gossip-here-I-come. But I would never ever bitchslap a friend. Ever since, I have a hard time keeping friends. At first, I thought the problem was in me but heck I was wrong. The fact is, I always choose the wrong "friends", the wrong people. I have few people who's always on my side for ages and I am really thankful that they also prioritize our friendship like I always do. I have a huge problem. Before, I trust people so easily and now? I am scared to trust people. I got trust issues, bigtime! And I know it's not that healthy. I mean, you know. I shouldn't generalize people too much. But hell! A lot of them are fake! Look, even people who are blood-related to me back stabbed me, so what should I do now, huh? Tell me. I am really having a hard time.

Envious Me

I am very proud of him. Prouder than ever. But there are times that I feel insecure about him. He has already started to reach his goals while me, still making a list of it. He's enjoying what he has right now while I am still confuse on what to prioritize. He insults me, laughs and hug me so tight. He's a sweet guy. I never feel so loved like this. But then I feel pity for myself. I still don't know what to do so he could be SO and REAL proud of me. He's proud of me because he LOVES me but I don't want it that way. I want him to be proud of me because of my sucessful accomplished life, like what he has right now. And by that, we could be really called the perfect tandem.