64 months of love

Dreaming of the days when my lover lay beside me, my mind is in heaven, just imagining his touch. Every single part of him I have fallen in love with. His beautiful brown eyes glow; I can see my future in him. This gorgeous brown I will never forget.

His lips, so smooth just begging for a kiss. The perfect color, the perfect shape, and oh how I love to kiss those beautiful lips. The same lips that whisper 'I love you' embrace mine and I am reminded of the passion. 

The stunning curve of his spine makes my hands loose control, I remember massaging his back, his shoulders. Hearing my love moan with every motion, every touch, every scratch, lets me know that he is in a land of bliss, which I provided day in, day out. Kissing and licking his knees, he shivered and shook with pleasure, I love to make him loose control. 

Remembering when I lay next to him, admiring the sun on his skin... he reminded me of a statue sometimes. So handsome, so perfect. Pure beauty. Remembering his fingers twirling through my soft brown hair, him staring into my eyes as we had a speechless conversation. 

Reminiscing of the mornings I would wake up next to him, his arm around me keeping me warm. Waking up being able to see him and kiss him good morning, with a soft 'I love you' being the first thing said. I remember being able to sleep next to him, being wrapped up warm in his arms. 

But this dreamland no longer exists; I feel nothing. All I feel is the pain from his absence, and a constant longing for my love that drives me insane. A constant loneliness that never subsides. 

The next time he will return to my arms seems like an eternity away. 

Nowadays when I roll over, there is merely a pillow. When I look over to awe at my love, all that remains is the wall. I remember when it was him who warmed me, now there is merely a blanket. My bed has suddenly become huge without him next to me, my palm is empty without him to here hold it, and my heart is empty without him here to love me. 

My mind is fried, all I think about is the next time I will see my love. I'm trying to stay strong, knowing that someday my love will return. Memories and the sound of his voice are the only things that keep me going, that keep me desperate for his return. Oh how I've hungered for his touch, for even a simple glance from those gorgeous eyes. Thinking of the next time I will wrap my arms around him and inhale the scent of his neck. When I will feel his stubble scratch my cheek, when I will be able to run my fingers over his shoulders and whisper 'Welcome home bheibhy, I love you' into his ear. When I will be able to gaze into his eyes and kiss him, with this kiss expressing how much I've missed him, how much I've yearned for him. Every part of my body, longs for his touch. 

A simple graze of his fingertips would be enough to make me fall to my knees.

Summer Luvin'!

Summer started kind of late

but deengg, it is so hot right now!

I hope I could attend some

beach party or something

or maybe visit my relatives

in La Union and do 

some surfing!

CHYYYEAAAH!

 

Miss T PART 2

Just an update.

Sorry for being such a bitch but this is really funny..


Miss T PM'd me last night and asked me if how am I doing in Japan. I told her I'm okay but I am already in the Philippines for the past two months. 

I told her that I heard she has a new boyfriend already and she confirmed it. I asked her what will happen to her "marriage" with her so-called "ex-husband". And guess what? She told me it is already annulled. WHAT THE @^%$#!!!


Look, I am not stupid enough to fall for this. They just broke up like 3 months ago and now they're already annulled?! Even the celebrities is having a hard time to file an annulment!


Wohhoo. Liar.

Updating only

It's really a boring day now. It is Holy week for us Christians so we can't really do anything happy at the moment because Christ is dead.

It's already 7PM at the moment and I haven't been productive today. I woke up at 2PM, ate my breakfast/lunch, took a bath and watched DVD. Lazy, I know. I want to go out but I am not sure if malls are open now and besides, I don't want to spend money. I am saving it for more important things. I am planning to apply this coming week so wish me luck. I really don't feel alright lately. I feel a little chest pain and occasional palpitations. I suspect it's the GERD or what we call gastroesophageal reflux disease. I was diagnosed three years ago and it is killing me always! I need to see a doctor one of these days so I could get prescription for my medicines.


Blah.

Miss T

Tonight, I will reveal a bad side of mine. I am sorry but I just have to let this out.

So here is the thing, I met this girl in one of my Saturday classes during my stay in CSB. Let us call her Miss T. We became hang out buddies. She was okay, a little, I guess. The first time we got to know we each other. We decided to eat lunch together. And the moment we sat down, she begun telling me tons of stories about her ex-boyfriend which was our school mate. And I was like.. "hey we just met, okay? So that means I don't give a damn about your love life. Can't you be a little sensible?" .... Of course, I didn't tell her that but I wish I did! 

I spent the rest of my Saturday breaks with her. Just because I have no choice. Fine, I might sound a little mean but that is the truth. 

I told the boyfriend to text her and pretend to be someone else. I told him to tell her a different profile. Someone appealing. Well, the boyfriend is very appealing but he's mine so yeah, I don't like him to use his real profile for private purposes. So Miss T and the boyfriend became virtual friends. All along, Miss T thought the boyfriend was just a close friend of mine. Lol! So during one of our lunch breaks, Miss T confessed to me that she was already falling for the boyfriend. Oopsie. Sorry, he's mine but I wasn't alarmed at all. It was all part of the game. 


Until the sweet boyfriend told her the truth about US. But she never confronted me about it. I guess she was having a hint all along.


I haven't seen Miss T for like a year now. I stopped school for the mean time while she transferred but we used to chat via Facebook.


Months ago, when I was still in Japan. She was telling me stories about her boyfriend (her ex-boyfriend now). Few weeks after they became couple, she told me that they were already engaged. She told me that her dad and the guy's parents wanted them to get married years from now because they're both from Chinese descent. 


After a month, I guess. She told me they got married at one of the historic places in Manila. At first she told me that they just wanted blessings from the pastor. Then suddenly, she told me that it was a real wedding. I even interrogated her about how did they get married when both of them are not yet in legal age to get married. She answered me that the guy's parent faked the signature that supposed to be her father's signature. BLAH BLAH.


Few weeks after, she was ranting all over Facebook how broken hearted she was. Her "husband" broke up with her. According to her story, her "husband" broke up with her because he was so jealous of someone else. That's it? Just because of jealousy? A "newlywed couple" will break up after few weeks just because of that lame reason? Fine. Whatever you say, Miss T.


Because I was really intrigued of this little liar, I PM'd her and asked what happened. Then she told me about the jealousy thing. And guess what, Miss T told me she was two-weeks pregnant. I told her to tell her "husband". She refused and gave a lot of excuses. I just listened.


After some weeks, she PM'd me in Facebook and told me she had a miscarriage. And she told me the most unbelievable story ever! Do I look that stupid to you, Miss T? 


And at this very moment, she was in a relationship with a totally different guy. Raving about how in love she is right now. 


And oh, last year she told me she will leave for States and until now she is still here in Philippines. She kept on posting status in Facebook that she will leave BLAH BLAH. 


I'm really sick and tired of this bitch. Sorry for all the rants but I am just really annoyed. I stopped talking to her two months ago. And I am thinking to delete her in my list.




Sorry for being such a hater.

Ate ninang misses you baby Nariki!

Hope to see you in few months!

Fun day with the Centeno's

Finally, I had the chance to unwind today. I went to SM Mall of Asia with the best friend, her brother Dyick and my god son, Bryce. We met around 2PM and had lunch at Juan Bistro. It was our first time to eat there. Well, the food was okay. After that, we went to Seaside and just roamed around. When it was getting hot, we decided to go back inside the mall and eat at the food court. I bought my all-time favorite frozen yogurt and the best friend bought fried chicken skin and ice cream. Around 6PM, we went back to Seaside because we will be watching the fireworks. Every Saturday, MOA has this kind of show, fireworks display. 


Well, we were like an hour early so we decided to wander again around the vicinity. We bought some food like scramble, mango shake, a hot dog and some fries. The best friend's son Bryce probably lost all his energy that he slept without us noticing but when the fireworks display started, the best friend woke him up. 


And after that, we all went home... without eating dinner. We were all awed by the fireworks display that we forgot to eat first before going home. Ha ha ha! But anyway, it was a fun day again with them. Well, I never had dull moments with the best friend.


I have to rest now. Later!

...

I am trying to refrain myself from blogging but heck, I really have to blog away. It is Friday night and here I am stuck at home. My sisters are out and I am left here with mom and some cousins. I was suppose to meet the best friend at a nearby mall but I did not pursue for some reasons. I feel sick, I hate the traffic, I am broke and lastly and the most important thing is I am concern of her health. Just so you know, something happened to her last Sunday. She might have tonic clonic seizure, epilepsy or the worst is tumor but then of course, I am hoping none of those. I hope the diagnosis would not be that serious at all. Lets just pray for her.


So what is new with me? Nothing is really new. I already got my sss number and NBI clearance so now I am ready to find some job. I will probably start next week. Good luck to me!