"Always say i love you before i go to sleep
if i die before i'm awake then i take your love with me
every second i'm away from you feels like misery
cuz i know where i really want to be
i know its been hard me not being there
bheibhy i don't want you thinking that i don't really care
and i know that your feeling like i'm being unfair
but your love is with me everywhere."




I miss you so mucccccchhhhhh,
my love :)



Happy monthsary, once again.
No more big fights, promise..
I'll be a good girl na.

Diagnosed with LOVE :)

"All i know is you're the cure 'cause I've been diagnosed with love.."





It's raining so hard,
yet my love for you goes strong.. and stronger
each and every day..


We fight most of the time,
argue with almost everything,
misunderstands each other..
but everytime I am hurt,
no one could mend me but you..



I love you.
I miss you.



Happy 45th monthsary my darling.
Still falling in love with you more and more..



3 years and 9 months
of everything I've dreamed of :)

Mika the Bum.

Saturday, today..
And for the first time, I was home the whole day!
Geez, originally.. my plan was to go
to Bulacan with Jade and stay there till Monday.

But my dear boyfriend didn't allow me to (as usual, duh.)


So there, I bummed around the whole day.
I did nothing but to eat, lie down on my bed,
surf the net, soundtripping and watching the TV.
Spell LAZY. M-I-K-A.


And unfortunately,
Ish went to MOA with her friends,

Yna went to Star City with our relatives
and my boyfriend went to a meeting
which will be extended till tomorrow or worse, till Monday.


BOO myself.
But on the brighter side,
I have to make sulit of this 3 day vacation
because on Tuesday,

I will say hello to school again.

Some realization.

This week has its own special ups and downs.
My precious mom and I argued about money matter,
thinking of unwinding, I slept at a friend's place.
When I came back after a night,
things are still the same the way I left it..


Oo nga naman, kahit takasan mo problema mo..
Ganun padin.. Walang magbabago..
Kung di mo haharapin..


But then, it hurts at times.
So all you could is to go away, for a while.
Not permanently..


But I always stick in my mind that
I should live longer,
not because of selfish reasons
but because there are also
people who would
feel incomplete without me.



So Mika, fight!

Birthday puresento!

I got a Nokia 5730.
Xpress Music's latest phone!
Yipee,
my parents gave it to me as a present
for my 20th birthday.
I am lovin' it so far. KKKKK.

What happened today huh?

I had my post birthday celebration at The Fort Global City
with the usuals, Jade and Ish. We ate at Friday's.
Then after that, we went to the nearby mall, Market! Market!
to check out some phones and I had an eye for
Nokia E66, N79 and 5730 Express Music.
Hope I'll have one of those!! :>


After checking some phones, we decided to watch some flick
and err, we watched the super grosssssss,
The Final Destination.
Honestly, it wasn't worth the money.
Although the lead actor was a hottie. *drool*
Still, morbid. Ugh.


It was a fine day, after all.
Tomorrow, I'd be going to the school
to get some subjects..
Hope I could still have a good schedule! *sad*
Please, I need some good crap this term.

Q's and A's :>

Are you available?

- Definetely not :)

Are there any stressful situations in your life?

- A lot. You have no idea.

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?

- Sometimes its open if no one is around.

Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?

- Yes.

Where did you get your last bruise from?

- I actually don't know. Hmm.

What are you currently hearing right now?

- None.

Anyone crushing on you?

- Haha.

What are you looking forward to?

- School's 2nd term.

Do you worry your last ex will move on & be happier with another person?

- Nope, as if I care.

Are you really happy or are you just saying that?

- Happy, in a way.

When did you last hold hands with someone ?

- My godson.

If you were kicked out of your current residence, whom would you call?

- My boyfriend.

Do you think relationships are hard?

- It is just a phase.

Are you a loud person?

- Wana know how loud am I? Haha.

When was the last time you slept on the floor?

- Hmm.

Did your parents do drugs when they were younger?

- No, they are very decent people.

Are there framed pictures from your parents wedding in your house?

- No, I don't know why.

Do you hate the last person you kissed?

- Nope.

Have you accidentally sent a text to the wrong person?

- A lot of times.

Something you really want right now?

- To see him.

Do you like to make the first move?

- If I am too desperate.

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?

- Super rough.

Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?

- Yes.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?

- Ish.

If you could go back 8 months and change something would you?

- None, I guess.

How do you feel about your relationship status?

- Very happy and could be happier.

Any summer plans for 2010 ?

- Hit the beach and yes, school again. Junior year.

Meaning of my Birthdate

Born on the 10th


You are a very charismatic person. People love to be in touch with you. You are self sacrificing in your relationships. Yo...u are like a coconut - tough outside but sensitive at heart. At times, you love to indulge in artistic and creative ventures. Take care that people don't take advantage of your helpful nature.




SO TRUE!

Birthday

09.10.09
It's my 20th birthday.
Mixed emotions.
Happy because God gave me another birthday
to celebrate and sad, because
teenage years are over. Pfff!


It's already past 1PM,
and I am still bumming around my room.
I really don't have plans for today.
I'll go to church tomorrow
and treat my friends for lunch..

That's it.


Dad called me a while ago and asked
if what phone I want to have.
I told him N96.
I was suppose to say N97,
but I remembered it is a touchscreen phone.
Me no likey.



*Sighs*
I want to talk to my boyfriend right now
but he's asleep.
He's sick.. So even though
I want to wake him up,
I rather not..
He needs a lot of rest.
My poor baby.




Hope today would be a good one.

A promise of a Lifetime.

I fell in love with you,
T'was like a dream come true
And my love for you will never end oh no
Was such a special night
You lay right by my side
And I told you things I never told a soul

And now that I have you babe
I promise I'll never leave
Cuz you are the only one that makes my life complete...

And I'm,
Crazy over you,
I dont know what to do,
I'm Crazy over you...

A love that never ends
You're more than just a friend
And my heart and soul I'll always give to you,
The only in my life



Someday you'll be my husband,
And I'll be with you until the end of time...

And now that I have you babe
I promise I'll never leave
Cuz you are the only one that makes my love complete...


It doesnt matter what you say or do
Because I love you (And I know you love me too)
Love me, kiss me, and hold me in your arms
Lets me know you're crazy over me
And I'm Crazy over you
Cuz you are the only one,
To make my life complete...










To the man I am so in love with right now,
you know who you are..

I want you to know that I regret it when I asked you..
"What if you are not the one?"

I know it hella hurts,
and yes I felt the same way too..

I know.. I know..
I know God gave you to me..
To be my partner for a lifetime.

I am sure of it.
I love you so much.

My Birthday Wish...

Two days before my 20th birthday,
and my long time wish is still impossible to happen, for now.
I want to spend it with my dear boyfriend
but then he couldn't go back in the P.I.
for several reasonable explanations.
I do, understand.
Totally? No. I guess.


Still problematic.
Still lonely.
I wish there's something
special will happen on my birthday.
Something memorable, perhaps.


But I rather lock myself
in my room on that day.
I'll just call my boyfriend
and spend my whole birthday
talking to him over the phone..


It will make me happy.
At least, I could feel
his presence..




How I really wish.. :(

I need Him forever and ever, Amen.

On this day of your life, Mika, we believe God wants you to know...
... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.

That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success.

...

Here I am again,
sitting on my chair,
in front of my laptop..
Typing whatever I feel right now.



There are still no changes..
Or rather, there are still many changes going on.
Complex. Random. Very complicated.
Crazy. Unruly.


I don't know who is true to me
and who's not.
I am trying not to get
affected but then I still
end up crying.


Life is sadder than I ever thought.
When will I ever be happy again?

Depression could kill.

I just woke up half an hour ago.
And I still feel.. depressed.

Like what I was feeling
before I hit my bed
last night..


How could people
change so easily?
I want to understand them..
But sometimes
they're getting into my nerves
and they start to give me
reasons not to..


Are they numb?
Hello? I am hurt. Duh?
*sobs*
I really don't know
what to think, to do.


Good thing,
I am not suicidal.. anymore.
So please,
could you give me some tequilla
and lemons please?

Happy Tuesday =)

Jade's 6 months tummy :D

Rouunnnddd.

Stolen shot.

Hmmmm.

My messy room.

Xienyong and I!

Playing around with the cam.

Do I look 2o? *laughs*

Tell me please?

So far, it was a very great day. Teehee!
My uber close friend Jade's pre-natal check up
turned out very good,
although yea, another two-week bed rest
but I am hoping she could go back to
working ASAP.
She needs moolah, c'mon!


And she had her ultrasound too.
And the gender is.. *tentenentenen!*
BOOOOOY! :)
And she'll name him,
Brylie Jaden.


I was the one who gave
that name.
So maybe we'll call him,
BRY?


Whatever.
Three months to go.
Can't wait.



So there,
after her check up,
we went straight to SSS Diliman branch
to get her SSS I.D.
but unfortunately,
we have to go back this coming Friday.


Another long ride,
P'que to QC. *sobs*
It was fun though.


After that, we both craved
to Red Mango's frozen yoghurt.
So went to Greenbelt 3
to satisfy our cravings.


Mika and Jade's another adventure
ended here.


But while I am typing this entry,
she's sleeping in my bed.
BOO. *haha*


Out of boredom,
we took some pics!