He's my everything, like a morning boy 

He's my angel, up above my world
He's the only one, who understands me
That's why I called him, my new fan league

He's the only one that I want by my side
He's the only one that I believe can save my life
He makes me wanna be a better woman ohh why,
He's higher then the sky, the suns and the moon

First let me say, he's the best of me
Is it cliche, to say he's destiny
It's no one else but him, well at least for me
That's exactly why, I must now repeat..

..He is like a star.

Life of a JFC

1988. Katsuhisa Ishikawa, a Japanese government employee met a petite sun-kissed Filipino model named Lorila Sampan one sunny afternoon in Manila. Things were fast. They fell in love despite of culture difference and age gap. Months after, they got married.


Lorie got her spouse visa and immediately went to Japan with her husband. They lived somewhere near Shibuya, Tokyo. 


1989, January. She is pregnant with their first child. After nine months, she gave birth to a bouncing baby girl weighed 7lbs in Manila. She named her Mika. When she was still pregnant, she used to watch a TV drama and she named her first child after her favorite character.


Mika spent her first six years in Tokyo, Japan. She was home-schooled by her father. Her father quitted working for the government and started to build his own company. She still remembers herself playing around her father's office.

A lot of people say she doesn't look Filipino. She looks like her father a lot. Her face, the way they eat, walk, etc.


In her 7th year, her parents decided to settle in the Philippines. She had a hard time communicating to her relatives, she doesn't understand Tagalog nor English but after quite some time, it wasn't hard for her to adjust. 


She was enrolled by her mother to a local school and there she met a lot of friends.


Mika was a straight top student during her elementary days. She used to join declamation competitions, dance contests, spelling bee contests and many more.


But just like any other JFC, she was bullied being a half. She once hated herself for having a foreign surname. Some of her classmates called her sakang (Filipinos tend to be racists most of the time, they call Japanese people, sakang.) She hated it when Japanese invasion in Philippines is being tackled in her History class. Her English teacher in 3rd grade even asked her if her mother was a japayuki (Japayuki is called to Filipinos who worked as entertainers/prostitututes in Japan) which was offensive.


Her life wasn't easy.


In highschool, everything turned out to be a big mess. In her sophomore year, she pretended to be sick for a few weeks but the truth is, she doesn't want to go to school anymore because her friends did something major wrong to her. Her kind parents understood her and her teachers helped her to finish 2nd year by giving her special school works.


After that incident, her father decided to enroll her in a computer school inside their village. There she learned to do drugs, tried cigarettes and drink alcohol. It was a big mistake. She even joined sorority. She was kicked out by the school. In her senior year, she just decided to do home-schooling again because she was too fed up with reality.


She graduated on time, but she didn't go to college right after. She didn't know what to take up and which school to go to. 


First semester is almost over. She decided to try college in second semester. She chose St. Scholastica's College, one of the prestigious all-girls school in Philippines. She took up BS Psychology. She didn't like it. So she transferred to a nearby school, De La Salle-College of St. Benilde. She took up BS Hotel, Restaurant and Institution Management. She likes the school but she had to stop schooling because her loving father just died recently due to heart attack.


Last August, she went to Japan. Not in Tokyo anymore but in Osaka, where her aunt and cousins are living. She needed to fix some things and hopefully will be back next year.



Her life is different now. She has changed a lot and think she is getting mature everyday.
Her life might not be perfect but she is contented. She has a loving family, its not complete now anymore though, but knowing her father loved her all his life is enough. 



And now she can say that she is a very lucky JFC.

First of all, sorry if magpopost ako ng ganito pero PUTANG INA MO KA HA? INIINIS MO BA AKO?! Ano ginawa ko sayo ha? Is it because I fuckin dumped you? Hahaha. Eh sorry ka, hindi naman kita type eh? Ngaun KAPATID ko tinatalo mong gago ka! LUL mo, magpakita ka muna sa kapatid ko! Ang dami mo sinasabi, wala ka naman tinutupad. DRAWING. STIRERO. BARBERO. SINUNGALING. Oo, at madami pa ako itatawag sayo! Kapal din ng mukha mo na tawaging poser boyfriend ko. Aba teka, ikaw ata un poser eh? Gumamit ka kaya ng sarili mong pic? Kasi naman kuya, kung magpapaka poser ka nalang din, edi gumamit ka lang ng pics ng iisang tao, hindi un pa-iba iba! Di naman kami tanga para di un mapansin un no! Di ko nga lang alam sa magaling kong kapatid kung bakit nauuto sya. Kasi mahal ka nya? LUL. At bullshit ka din e no, after mo ako landiin at sendan ng mga msgs na sweet, nun nabuking na kagaguhan at kalandian mo ng kapatid ko, bigla mo idedeny?! Kesho, hindi ikaw un nagtetext saken? At un mga friends mo un? HAHAHA. Alam mo totoo. ALAM MO YAN. Ewan ko nga ba at bakit mas pinaniwalaan ka pa ng kapatid ko kesa sakin na sarili nyang kapatid! Kasi naman kung iisipin mo, bakit naman kita sisiraan diba kung wala ka naman talagang ginagawang masama? Wala ako pakielam sayo. May pakielam ako sa kapatid ko. Naaawa ako sa kanya dahil nagpapauto sya sa gagong tulad mo!




Teka, may colon cancer ka diba? Bakit parang okay ka naman? Tapos diba naaksidente ka tapos muntik na maputol legs mo then pumunta ka daw US then nagpatherapy ka tapos nakapag breakdance?! WUHOOO! Ang galing mo naman! Tapos may leukemia ka daw? Need mo na ng blood transfusion ASAP or else you will die pero lagi kayo nagpupuyatan sa fone ng kapatid ko? HAHAHA! Wawa naman un kapatid ko, naghahagilap ng Blood AB para lang sayo! Sana nga kung totoo eh hindi naman! Hahaha.

Makonsensya ka naman! Tanda tanda mo na e, bata bata pa ng kapatid ko. ALAM MO BA NA HINDI KA NAMAN INAAMIN SAMIN NG SIS KO? OO TAMA. HINDI ALAM NI MAMA AT NG KUNG SINO MAN SA PAMILYA KO NA, BOYFRIEND KA NYA. Kaya sorry ka nalang ha? Hanggat buhay pa ako, wala ka magiging papel sa buhay ng pamilya ko! You deserve it, asshole.




Pakatotoo ka, pwede un. Wala naman bayad.


At sabihin mo sa mga malalandi mong kaibigan na minsan sa buhay ko tinuring ko din na kaibigan, ang GAGAGO nila sobra!!! Akala mo totoo, un pala pinag-uusapan ako pag di ako kaharap. HOY ANG PAPANGET NYO! Oo nga, galing kayo sa mayayaman at kilalang pamilya pero ugali nyo SQUATTER. Sabi na ba e, alam kong mangyayari to. Hahaha. Ikaw! Oo ikaw! Ang panget mo bitch ka. Pasalamat ka, hindi kita pinatulan nun huling kita natin! Tang ina ka ha, hintayin mo lang pagbalik ko ng Pinas.



MAMATAY NA SANA KAYONG LAHAT!

I saw this at my bestfriend's blog :)

So sweet and she made me miss her more!



click here to see her blog 

Bheibhy, happy monthsary po. Its been four years and ten months but you're still the best girlfriend in the world. Tell me, paano pa ako magkakaroon ng time lumingon sa iba, if all the time, I think of you. I'm the luckiest guy. I want you to know that you're a real precious woman. I will keep and treasure you forever.

If I will have one last song, maybe the title would be 'one last girl' cause I don't want to love someone else other than you. I know I'm corny most of the time. Maybe its true that if you're in love, nagiging si Shakespear ka. Haha. Mwuah. I love you.


- My boyfriend texted me this. Yay. Happiness :)


 

One of the things I've learned in life is to say thank you, no matter how small or big a person contributed in your life. We, humans always like to be appreciated. 

One of the things I've learned in life is never say anything if you're too ecstatic or too lonely. Sometimes, we could be carried away of our feelings.

One of the things I've learned in life is that most of the time, goodbyes are forever.

One of the things I've learned in life is never ever reject people in your life if you still need them. Sometimes you just can't have them back and if you ever you win them back already, things can never just be the same again.



 

I want!

Red velvet cupcake

Chocolate cupcakes

Berry cupcakes

 

 

 

 

 

 

Do you feel the

same way too?

This song is.. ah relaxing

The Perfect Guy

Sometime in your life, you would find someone who would make you smile by just seeing him.

The one who makes you cry and the only person who would make you stop crying.

He kisses you and you would feel electricity all over your body. His every touch has a tingling sensation. His eyes would mesmerize you and when you are with him, the world stops for a while. Everything seems like in slo-mo. Then one day, you will start dreaming of marrying him and having babies.

He would hurt you unintentionally and you will say mean words to him then after a while, you realize that you were wrong. You will apologize and he will say Its okay, kisses your forehead and smile.

Sometime in your life, you will find someone who would never buy a cake during special occasions because he will personally bake it for you. Someone who would not put your picture in a frame and display it in his room because when you get the chance to go to his room, you will see a portrait of you, the one he sketched by himself. 

You will find someone who was busy all day long and you don't even know why. He doesn't text, he doesn't call. You will start thinking of things... then suddenly he will come and see you, wearing a plain shirt, pants and sneakers with his guitar. He will kneel in front of you and start singing. You will love the song and would ask him Its so beautiful, how come I never heared it before in the radio? He would grin and say Because I just made it today.

Top 10 Lies

• Nothing.
• You're really pretty.
• I'm not hungry.
• Five minutes.
• I don't mind.
• I won't tell anyone.
• I'm sorry.
• I'm fine.
• I'm on my way.
• I LOVE YOU.

Suddenly, he stopped caring and I don't even know why. Is he loving me less? 
He texts very seldom.. and being my dumb self, I keep on waiting.
I will get mad, he says sorry and tells me he will never do it again..
But the next day, same shit happens.

What's wrong? Is he like any other guy who just keeps on saying things
but never make it happen?

I just keep on hurting myself.
Waiting, waiting and waiting.

I wish I could turn back the time.
I still remember our last major break-up.
He keeps on texting, calling, texting and calling.

Why did he change?



I turned off my phone now.
Because everytime I check my phone and see that he didn't text.
I just get hurt so better not to open.

No expectations, no pain.

Best friend

Four years ago, I met someone. A girl named Jade. The moment I saw her, I knew she was exactly my opposite and I thought we wouldn't really get along. But I was wrong, like the meaning of her name, she is precious. One of a kind. Sweet and loving girl.

And yeah, I miss her. Its been three months since the last time I saw her and it would take more months or maybe even a year before I will see her again *sighs*

Just want to tell her that.. Im proud of you because you are a matured young lady now and keep being a good mom to your baby :)

 

I'm that girl that holds a smile on her face,

even when things are a mess and her faith falls out of place,

I'm that girl who believes in taking chances for what I want,

instead of pretending to be happy as someone I'm not.

I'm that girl who's not afraid to let her emotions show,

and learns to go on as her feelings start to grow,

I'm that girl who would never give up on the love of her life,

because there are two paths she can make the wrong or the right,

I'm that girl who would travel a million miles away,

just to find the love that shes been waiting for everyday.

I'm that girl who doesn't care about what other people think of my style,

the one that savors every moment even if its only for a little while,

I'm that girl that can never keep a secret,

I'm shy but that doesn't mean I can ever keep it,

I'm that girl who kisses but doesn't believe,

because she's sad if she lets go and then her love would leave.

I'm that girl that people call weird, random, and dramatic,

but there's more to me if you'll listen behind all the noise and static,

I'm that girl that can cry and laugh all at the same time,

the one that's innocent looking but can commit a heartbroken crime,

I'm that girl that tries hard to push herself through,

the one that doesn't care if she'll ever fit in tobe kool.

I'm that girl you can call imperfect,

my hairs always a mess,

I'm under a lot of pressure and all the stress,

I'm really not so different as the rest,

if it were up to me I'll say I come in second best.

I'm that girl who loves to laugh,

the one that can joke around till things get out of control,

the one who envy's those blond girls and there perfect lives,

meanwhile I'm stuck on this wild ride.

I'm that girl that loves to dream,

but this reality is not what it seems,

a fairytale ending waiting to come true,

another risk worth taking what does she have to lose?

I'm that girl who can never prove what she can really do,

because she gives up to easily but none really knew,

instead shes judged by others that are strangers to her eyes,

bottled up with any goodbyes and silent cries for help,

but nones there so she has to rely on herself...

I'm that girl,

and that is my world...

I know your secrets now.

And I cant accept it.

He stands 180cm or more, black hair and has mesmerizing eyes.
He has a body of a model, a modern Adonis, indeed.
Shoe size is 12. Redish lips and nice teeth.

He drives fancy cars, from Ferrari to Porsche. 
He went to a good school and was a straight A student.

He is sporty. Badminton. Taekwondo. Soccer. Baskteball. Tennis.
Name it, he plays it.


Great dancer and has a voice who lullabys me at night.
He is a great cook. He could cook anything.
He loves baking cake for me <<<3

He is moody, childish and most of the time, acts like a bratt.
But who cares? He is my baby.














 

The smile.

The pose.

And the abs.. Its just everything!

Fabio Ide.

A brapanese (Brazilian-Japanese) model.

I saw him in Comedy Bar (TV show)

and he is just so hot.

[M/V] TAEYANG - WHERE U AT [HD]

The melody is great (I cant say the lyrics is good or not cuz I dont understand a word, lol). Choreography is terrific and the artist is HAWWWWT.

Things I must accomplish before I reach 30

• Finish my college degree
• Get married
• Have my first child
• Get a stable job
• Buy a posh car
• Visit Europe 

   9 years to go!

Love Calculator

Childish though but just give it a try! LOL

TOMORROW IS THE DAY! :)

Do you still want to marry me? 

Do you still want me to be your wife?

Do you still want me to be the mom 
of your future babies?

Would you still give me a butterfly garden

like you promised?

                                                   Do you still want to 
                                                    grow old with me?

Confession

 

 

Long distance relationship?

Yes, it works.

The question is.. until when?

I don't know what's happening to my boyfriend and I. He is just so distant, so far and unreachable. I believe that he still loves me but I don't really know the cause. Maybe he is starting to like somebody else? (No, please.) Or busy? Busy of what? He isn't working yet. I keep on texting him. Out of ten text messages, he will reply just once or twice and mostly it is just a one liner. Maybe he is bored of our relationship. Well, yeah. I can't blame him. It is really boring. No personal affection. Maybe he is tired of phone calls, video calls, emails and texting. Sorry, but I am really affected, hurt and paranoid.

If he doesn't want me anymore, maybe its better if he will just tell me straight to my face -.-;;

I am tired of thinking, guessing and assuming things. It affects my whole life.

Nostalgia

Its already 3:20AM (Japan time) and I can't sleep yet. Prolly because I had a 14 hours sleep last night and took an hour sleep again in the afternoon. FINE, I'm a sleepy head. So what? -.-;;


I'm kinda worried of my future because I am already 21 and I should be graduating college at this age but then I had to stop because of.. I can't really call it a financial problem because we have money.. Hmm, well yeah, due to emotional/family problems. I don't want to elaborate the 'problem' anymore because for sure, whoever reading this now knows what am I talking about. If not, never mind. I have a super rich boyfriend but then, I'm not sure if we will end up together. Hey hey, don't react yet negatively. Of course, I WANT US TO END UP TOGETHER. But we can never tell, right? Especially with this kind of set up were having right now. Communication is scarce. I am just so scared that we might actually fall out of love someday. Weve been together for like four years and 9 months now and it wouldn't be easy if that happens. I never loved someone like him before. It's just so amazing. Well, he is amazing :)




I've been nostalgic lately. I miss a lot of people --;; I miss my mom and my two crazy siblings but they're coming over here on Sunday so hurray! It would be a reunion. I've been gone for about two months now. I miss my bestfriend, Jade. Its so sad that I can't be personally be beside her right now. She's been frustrated lately because her son (my godson) is sick, money issues, stressful job and the endless family problems. I wish we could hang out, talk about our problems and just laugh it off after, just like the old times *sighs* I miss some of my cousins too like Ate Donna and Ate Mabel. I'm so happy that Ate Donna career life is back on track. God really has good plans for her. Wish she takes it seriously now. And about Ate Mabel, she's still unlucky when it comes to job hunting but I know she will land a good and deserving job someday. For now, she's enjoying her motherhood and of course, married life. I miss Angel, as well. But due to family conflicts, I want to be distant. I just don't know the truth anymore. Maybe we should have a sit-down conversation when I go back to Philippines. Just to clear out things. 


Hmm, I miss Xien/Kebab as well. My darling shih tzu.
Here is a pic of her taken by my sister a while ago.

Isnt she a cutie? Lol :) Wish they could just put her in the baggage and bring her here!
But pfft, that is impossible :(

Wishful thinking

Been really crazy this past few days. Ive been thinking nothing/no one but my boyfriend.
Hey I am not obsessed but I dunno, maybe I just miss him so much. He's been kinda busy this past few days because of whatever business he is planning with his friend. 


Hmm.. been wondering how our baby would look like?

like this?

 

or like this?

or could it be a carbon copy

of Mason Moon? CUTEEEE!

What would be Brent and I's offspring would look like? We both have fair complexion and chinky eyes and very asian features. Well, he is a bit whiter than me though. And he is hella tall compare to me. So I dunno, I just wish the baby looks like his father and has a genuine heart like his mother *winks*

CRAP, what am I thinking? I'm not even pregnant.

Gimme back my sex life! PFFFT.

5 dayzzzz to go! :D

Five days to go! I am so excited! Mama and my two siblings would be going here in Japan!
I havent seen them for like two months now, seriously. I miss them a lot.
Gahh, hope they could bring along the dogs but too bad it isnt possible.
Hopefully I could visit Manila on March. *cross fingers*