March 28-29 update

The boyfriend and I celebrated our 63rd monthsary two days ago. No, were still not together but we still managed to celebrate it by talking to the phone. It's enough for now. He cooked chicken curry (our favorite), lasagna and his very own jelly cake. I was so happy that night. Happy because despite of what is happening to him, to us.. he still haven't changed. I love you, B.


I am sick worried of him for two days. I couldn't sleep. He wasn't feeling well. A while ago, his dad accompanied him to the hospital. Thank God the diagnosis wasn't serious enough for him to die. The doctor told him that his heart beat is not normal and as usual, he's stressed. I wish he will be okay soon. I'm so worried, really.


But anyway, last night was one of my happiest nights ever. My siblings, mom, cousin Ryan, his wife and me went to Manila Memorial to visit my father's grave. It was my parents' 23rd wedding anniversary supposedly. After that, we went to Macapagal to have dinner. Seafood for the win. Yum! We had calamares, buttered shrimps, crabs in oyster sauce, mussels topped with garlic and cheese and also sinigang sa miso. It's been a while since we went outside with mom. So it was really great and I know she enjoyed! 

Super mad

You know what makes me so mad? When you give so much respect to someone yet she chose not to be at least kind to you. Yeah, that is bull and I am just a human. Someday, I will get even. I have so much hatred to someone right now. A mistress and a drug addict who actually don't deserve respect from anyone. I won't name her. She's an ugly bitch and for sure karma is on her way. I officially hate mistresses now. Damn home wreckers!

Sick baby needs some loving

I'm sick worried of my boyfriend. I called him up a while ago and told me he was feeling sick. Hope he will feel better tomorrow. He told me he argued with his older sister Ivy because of what happened yesterday. He walked out of the hospital without them knowing the reason. But me, I know the reason. It was me. Ha ha ha. We weren't okay yesterday and I am too lazy to elaborate what happened. Maybe next time, mmkay? But hey, I really miss my boyfriend. I miss his sweetness. I miss him baby-ing me. 

Update yo

Last Saturday, my family and I went to Manila Memorial because it is my father's death anniversary. It was an emotional day for me and especially for my mother who was crying all the time while priest was preaching. I couldn't help but to cry also. The priest's homily was good and inspiring. It was about moving on. The day was incomplete though because my sister Misa didn't make it. She had afternoon classes and was stucked in traffic. Anyway, Papa will surely understand. A lot of people came. Some of my aunts and uncles, cousins, nephews and nieces and also some friends. We had a little gathering after. We ate some food. My aunts and cousins brought some food to share too. It was a memorable one and I am also happy that I saw my close cousins again after a long time. 


The other day was a very bad day. I went to the diagnostic center where I had my blood work ups and x-rays done. My blood tests were fine. Within normal range. But my x-ray was a bad one. I have mild scoliosis. A bone disorder that my sister has and also my aunt too. My sister was diagnosed last year if I am not mistaken. I need to see a specialist for this and for sure undergo some therapies needed like my sister did. It would be quite expensive for sure but it would be worth it. I need to change my lifestyle. Seriously, this time. 


I need to get my JPY 20,000 from my aunt. I messaged her a while ago via Facebook. She is online now but as I've expected she didn't reply. People sometimes are so insensitive, eh? C'mon, I need a decent reply! It is not like I am borrowing money from her. I am getting my money! Hah! I am so mad again. She can tell me if she can't give it right now. I am a matured woman who can understand things like that.


You know what's making me mad? Everytime my cousins are asking money from her, she would say yes immediately but me? She can't even reply! @!&#$"$#"5&!!!




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I miss the boyfriend. When can I see you love? I miss you and everything about you, you hot little thing you! 


I love you so much lover!

I am sick of douchebags commenting/posting in social networking sites that my fellow Japanese deserved the tragedy happened few days ago! C'mon people!

Update

How time flies so fast! I can't believe that two days from now, it will be already my father's first death anniversary. I actually dreamt of him last night. I can't really tell the details because it wasn't clear. I feel so sad today. A while ago, mom and my cousin are talking their experiences about my father's confinement before he passed away. I don't actually want to talk about it or even remembering it 'cause the pain still lingers. 


Anyway, change topic..


Last Monday, I went to Healthway The Fort to have a check up again. I went to a different doctor but told me to the same thing. She gave some names of laboratories where I could get a cheaper blood work up and x-rays. I will still find them though 'cause she don't know the addresses. Good luck to me. *sigh. The back pain still occurs time to time. 


My sister is planning to go to Japan and get some work. She wanted to earn money 'cause she said her university will have a tuition fee increase this coming school year. Hope her plans will turn well. I am wishing all the best for her.


After knowing what's making me sick, I am also planning to find some job. I need to.

What to do?

The other day, something tragic happened to my other home, Japan. A 9.0 magnitude earthquake striked north eastern Japan. I've spent my afternoon watching NHK and BBC so I could be updated of my country. I was teary-eyed when I watched what was happening to Japan because after the earthquake, the tsunami came after and killed hundreds of people and still counting. A lot of houses were destroyed. Cars were crashed like toys and roads are totally damaged. I wonder if my paternal grandmother is alright. I called up my aunt in Osaka and asked if she and my cousins are okay. Thanks God they weren't affected at all.


I am very touched by people who are privately messaging me in Facebook and asking me if I am okay. Some of them still don't know that I am back in Manila. And I also received text messages from friends telling me that they are happy and relieved that I am already back in Manila before the tragedy happened.


If there are good people.. of course, there are also the villains. I see some people in Facebook posting that it's okay that something like that happened in Japan because they are rich, they could move on easily. Is that even right? And there is more.. some people also said that its just a karma of what they did during World War II, specifically Pearl Harbor. 


Why can't just people around the world just help the Japanese people? Instead of saying bad things about the country and its people? My heart is crying secretly because of this.


But then, we can't do anything about it. I am also happy that some countries are extending their help to Japan and I heard from my sister that American pop star, Justin Bieber donated a million to our country. 


It still scares me that something like this happened just few days ago. What will happen tomorrow? Is the 2012 prediction true? No one knows. I guess, we humans just have to pray to God. That is all we can do. To pray.

Back in Manila

It's been a while huh? I'm back in Manila now and so far, I am okay. I've missed my family so much and of course my close cousins and friends. I came back here last 25th of February. I've missed my dogs too! 


So far, I've seen Jade and Therese only among my friends. I met up with Therese at The Fort to catch up and of course, I wanted to see her daughter too. She was so pretty! Just like her mom. I've been with Jade several times already since I got here but last week, we went to the mall with her son who is such a cutie and he is such a bright child. Seems like my best friend is enjoying motherhood which is good. I am happy for her. 


The boyfriend and I are also doing good as well except that we don't talk that much anymore lately 'cause he's dealing with some family issues. I guess I have no right to say it here 'cause it's too personal but I am always praying to God to give him enough courage and strength so he could overcome whatever he is experiencing now. I am always here for him. I love him so much. I wish everything will turn out fine soon.


Financially speaking, my family is in really bad state. Aside from the fact that we are financially unstable.. we are dealing with one issue. Okay, here is the thing. We are receiving pension from the Osaka town hall every two months. Since none of us are in Japan anymore. My mom's sister is the one who is responsible of withdrawing the money from mom's bank account in Japan every two months. We still have a money left in the bank which is JPY150,000. My mom contacted my aunt and told her to send the money as soon as possible because my sister would be having her finals soon and needs to pay the remaining balance in school plus utility bills will be coming soon. She told mom that she will send the money on the 7th of March and its already 10th of March.. yet no money was sent! My mom is getting depress already. My aunt's mobile is out of reach, she doesn't go online anymore and no one is answering their land line. I wonder if she spent our money and intentionally not contacting us because she knows mom will get mad if she will find out what she did? 


I wouldn't be surprise if she did that. She has actually an attitude of spending money of others. She eventually would pay it but the fact that you are not actually "borrowing" the money yet you spent it is such a bad attitude. 


Tsk tsk tsk. Now tell me, who should I trust in this world filled with selfish people?