Envious Me

I am very proud of him. Prouder than ever. But there are times that I feel insecure about him. He has already started to reach his goals while me, still making a list of it. He's enjoying what he has right now while I am still confuse on what to prioritize. He insults me, laughs and hug me so tight. He's a sweet guy. I never feel so loved like this. But then I feel pity for myself. I still don't know what to do so he could be SO and REAL proud of me. He's proud of me because he LOVES me but I don't want it that way. I want him to be proud of me because of my sucessful accomplished life, like what he has right now. And by that, we could be really called the perfect tandem.