Japanese doll

I was desperately looking for a certain picture of Jade and I. I searched it in my friendster profile, found nothing. I tried to look for it also in her profile, I didn't find it too. Where did it go? Ugh!

I kinda felt sad because I saw my boyfriend's butterfly drawings for me on Jade's profile. It was on my walls before when Jade took a picture of it. It was 3 drawings. 2 small ones and the other one is bigger. I tore the small ones months ago out of anger when I thought he was seeing other girl in Malaysia. Who would thought it was his twin brother? Lol. I don't know. I kinda feel a regret but no one could blame me of what happened. I was in deep pain that time. Worthless pain. GAAH!