Wishful thinking

Year 2009 will be officially gone in 3 hours. Its a relief for me honestly. I can't recall any good memories except for Jade and I's journey during her pregnancy which was really unforgettable but aside from that, I can't think of any. It was pretty bad at all. Hope year 2010 will be way way way better than sucky 2009.



First thing on the list, I BADLY want to be with my boyfriend. I miss him a lot. More than words could ever say. Second, good health for all of us. Third, no financial problem! *cross fingers* recession, duh.







I wish 2010 would be a GREAT YEAR for all of us! Specially for me and my sweetie.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

AKEOME! ^^

Happy old times.

Time flies so fast.
I've been missing a lot of things..
specially the good times of being an innocent child.

Like that little Mika in the picture,
she seems so happy there,
opposite of the Mika in the present.

If I could just turn back time...
I want to be a kid again.
No stress. All happy.

L-R: Tita Nora, cousin Angel, Me and cousin Bhel.

My life s hella CRAZY :

but..

I'm still coping up.

Exactly 22 days before Christmas.
And still, I can't feel it.


Less than a month to go and year 2009 will be over. A year wherein I wasn't happy at all. It was a bad year, after all... How about 2010? I'm wondering... and wishing it will be a good one. I deserve it.

The wake up call.

These past few days, I was trying to get rid of my boyfriend because he puts me into a lot of stress. I hate him being too childish and over protective. I even thought of breaking up with him so we could be independent from each other.

Last Friday, he was AGAIN engaged into a fight with a stranger.A trouble started from the "parking space" issue. I don't really know the whole story yet but I know it wasn't really serious.. He had a broken rib. And ummm, yes.. He needed to undergo a minor operation.

I was in deep depression. Things have been really tough for me lately and here we go again, another problem. Another cause of my depression.

I was on my way to school a while ago. I rode a bus, while I am inside it. Things have been running in my mind... that I need my boyfriend more than anything else. That, I really love him. Maybe I just got tired. Who doesn't, right? It is a normal thing... that I can't bare to lose him. I miss it when he keeps on calling me and asks me where am I, who I am with.. bla, bla, bla. I miss it when he wants me to baby him. I realized.. that I actually love him being childish and over protective. This must be a wake up call for me and I am very thankful God listened to all my prayers. He's okay now, by the way. He called me up a while ago. Just hoping for a fast recovery.

Bryce Jaden.

November 20, 2009.
11:45PM


We welcomed Bryce Jaden to the real world. Yes, yes it's true! My dear friend Jade already gave birth. I went to the lying in clinic around 8PM. Thinking that it maybe a false alarm again, I wasn't really that worried that much. But when I got inside her room, she was in real pain. I stayed beside her all night. I was holding her hand and I could feel she was terribly gripping it when her tummy is contracting. When she couldn't hold it anymore.. the midwife already decided to bring her inside the delivery room. I didn't go inside because i was nervous like everyone else. I could feel the tension in the air. And it is my first time to encounter this kind of situation. A real woman giving birth. I thought I could only see it in movies but then it happened...


After several pushes, the baby went out. But.. the baby didn't cry. We were in shock and everyone started crying because the baby supposes to cry but then he didn't. We thought he might be dead or... I don't know. I was clueless... blank... The midwife had to pump his mouth to give him oxygen, and put two tiny hose inside his nostrils and they did something more... after 10 minutes or less, the baby cried.. at last. Thank you Lord.


It was a very memorable experience for me. Seeing a woman giving birth in actual, especially that it is my friend. My baby weighed 2.5kg, that is around 5.5lbs. He has chubby cheeks, chinky eyes, fair skin, and black hair. Cute, indeed. I hope he'll be a good kid someday. I can't wait to see inaanak again!

"Everything that is happening in our lives has a purpose, be it something good or something bad. It never willed our lives to be like hell. So when a turning point seems so terrible, later you would notice that a wonderful thing compensates for the seemingly hopeless incident. Very often than not, our lives become better; and that is what they call- a blessing in disguise."



There would always be problems. We will never run out of it. We just have to be tough and strong enough to face it. Everything happens for a reason. We just always have to look at the brighter side of the situation.