Love Calculator

Childish though but just give it a try! LOL

TOMORROW IS THE DAY! :)

Do you still want to marry me? 

Do you still want me to be your wife?

Do you still want me to be the mom 
of your future babies?

Would you still give me a butterfly garden

like you promised?

                                                   Do you still want to 
                                                    grow old with me?

Confession

 

 

Long distance relationship?

Yes, it works.

The question is.. until when?

I don't know what's happening to my boyfriend and I. He is just so distant, so far and unreachable. I believe that he still loves me but I don't really know the cause. Maybe he is starting to like somebody else? (No, please.) Or busy? Busy of what? He isn't working yet. I keep on texting him. Out of ten text messages, he will reply just once or twice and mostly it is just a one liner. Maybe he is bored of our relationship. Well, yeah. I can't blame him. It is really boring. No personal affection. Maybe he is tired of phone calls, video calls, emails and texting. Sorry, but I am really affected, hurt and paranoid.

If he doesn't want me anymore, maybe its better if he will just tell me straight to my face -.-;;

I am tired of thinking, guessing and assuming things. It affects my whole life.

Nostalgia

Its already 3:20AM (Japan time) and I can't sleep yet. Prolly because I had a 14 hours sleep last night and took an hour sleep again in the afternoon. FINE, I'm a sleepy head. So what? -.-;;


I'm kinda worried of my future because I am already 21 and I should be graduating college at this age but then I had to stop because of.. I can't really call it a financial problem because we have money.. Hmm, well yeah, due to emotional/family problems. I don't want to elaborate the 'problem' anymore because for sure, whoever reading this now knows what am I talking about. If not, never mind. I have a super rich boyfriend but then, I'm not sure if we will end up together. Hey hey, don't react yet negatively. Of course, I WANT US TO END UP TOGETHER. But we can never tell, right? Especially with this kind of set up were having right now. Communication is scarce. I am just so scared that we might actually fall out of love someday. Weve been together for like four years and 9 months now and it wouldn't be easy if that happens. I never loved someone like him before. It's just so amazing. Well, he is amazing :)




I've been nostalgic lately. I miss a lot of people --;; I miss my mom and my two crazy siblings but they're coming over here on Sunday so hurray! It would be a reunion. I've been gone for about two months now. I miss my bestfriend, Jade. Its so sad that I can't be personally be beside her right now. She's been frustrated lately because her son (my godson) is sick, money issues, stressful job and the endless family problems. I wish we could hang out, talk about our problems and just laugh it off after, just like the old times *sighs* I miss some of my cousins too like Ate Donna and Ate Mabel. I'm so happy that Ate Donna career life is back on track. God really has good plans for her. Wish she takes it seriously now. And about Ate Mabel, she's still unlucky when it comes to job hunting but I know she will land a good and deserving job someday. For now, she's enjoying her motherhood and of course, married life. I miss Angel, as well. But due to family conflicts, I want to be distant. I just don't know the truth anymore. Maybe we should have a sit-down conversation when I go back to Philippines. Just to clear out things. 


Hmm, I miss Xien/Kebab as well. My darling shih tzu.
Here is a pic of her taken by my sister a while ago.

Isnt she a cutie? Lol :) Wish they could just put her in the baggage and bring her here!
But pfft, that is impossible :(

Wishful thinking

Been really crazy this past few days. Ive been thinking nothing/no one but my boyfriend.
Hey I am not obsessed but I dunno, maybe I just miss him so much. He's been kinda busy this past few days because of whatever business he is planning with his friend. 


Hmm.. been wondering how our baby would look like?

like this?

 

or like this?

or could it be a carbon copy

of Mason Moon? CUTEEEE!

What would be Brent and I's offspring would look like? We both have fair complexion and chinky eyes and very asian features. Well, he is a bit whiter than me though. And he is hella tall compare to me. So I dunno, I just wish the baby looks like his father and has a genuine heart like his mother *winks*

CRAP, what am I thinking? I'm not even pregnant.

Gimme back my sex life! PFFFT.

5 dayzzzz to go! :D

Five days to go! I am so excited! Mama and my two siblings would be going here in Japan!
I havent seen them for like two months now, seriously. I miss them a lot.
Gahh, hope they could bring along the dogs but too bad it isnt possible.
Hopefully I could visit Manila on March. *cross fingers*