Birthday

09.10.09
It's my 20th birthday.
Mixed emotions.
Happy because God gave me another birthday
to celebrate and sad, because
teenage years are over. Pfff!


It's already past 1PM,
and I am still bumming around my room.
I really don't have plans for today.
I'll go to church tomorrow
and treat my friends for lunch..

That's it.


Dad called me a while ago and asked
if what phone I want to have.
I told him N96.
I was suppose to say N97,
but I remembered it is a touchscreen phone.
Me no likey.



*Sighs*
I want to talk to my boyfriend right now
but he's asleep.
He's sick.. So even though
I want to wake him up,
I rather not..
He needs a lot of rest.
My poor baby.




Hope today would be a good one.

A promise of a Lifetime.

I fell in love with you,
T'was like a dream come true
And my love for you will never end oh no
Was such a special night
You lay right by my side
And I told you things I never told a soul

And now that I have you babe
I promise I'll never leave
Cuz you are the only one that makes my life complete...

And I'm,
Crazy over you,
I dont know what to do,
I'm Crazy over you...

A love that never ends
You're more than just a friend
And my heart and soul I'll always give to you,
The only in my life



Someday you'll be my husband,
And I'll be with you until the end of time...

And now that I have you babe
I promise I'll never leave
Cuz you are the only one that makes my love complete...


It doesnt matter what you say or do
Because I love you (And I know you love me too)
Love me, kiss me, and hold me in your arms
Lets me know you're crazy over me
And I'm Crazy over you
Cuz you are the only one,
To make my life complete...










To the man I am so in love with right now,
you know who you are..

I want you to know that I regret it when I asked you..
"What if you are not the one?"

I know it hella hurts,
and yes I felt the same way too..

I know.. I know..
I know God gave you to me..
To be my partner for a lifetime.

I am sure of it.
I love you so much.

My Birthday Wish...

Two days before my 20th birthday,
and my long time wish is still impossible to happen, for now.
I want to spend it with my dear boyfriend
but then he couldn't go back in the P.I.
for several reasonable explanations.
I do, understand.
Totally? No. I guess.


Still problematic.
Still lonely.
I wish there's something
special will happen on my birthday.
Something memorable, perhaps.


But I rather lock myself
in my room on that day.
I'll just call my boyfriend
and spend my whole birthday
talking to him over the phone..


It will make me happy.
At least, I could feel
his presence..




How I really wish.. :(

I need Him forever and ever, Amen.

On this day of your life, Mika, we believe God wants you to know...
... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.

That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success.

...

Here I am again,
sitting on my chair,
in front of my laptop..
Typing whatever I feel right now.



There are still no changes..
Or rather, there are still many changes going on.
Complex. Random. Very complicated.
Crazy. Unruly.


I don't know who is true to me
and who's not.
I am trying not to get
affected but then I still
end up crying.


Life is sadder than I ever thought.
When will I ever be happy again?

Depression could kill.

I just woke up half an hour ago.
And I still feel.. depressed.

Like what I was feeling
before I hit my bed
last night..


How could people
change so easily?
I want to understand them..
But sometimes
they're getting into my nerves
and they start to give me
reasons not to..


Are they numb?
Hello? I am hurt. Duh?
*sobs*
I really don't know
what to think, to do.


Good thing,
I am not suicidal.. anymore.
So please,
could you give me some tequilla
and lemons please?

Happy Tuesday =)

Jade's 6 months tummy :D

Rouunnnddd.

Stolen shot.

Hmmmm.

My messy room.

Xienyong and I!

Playing around with the cam.

Do I look 2o? *laughs*

Tell me please?

So far, it was a very great day. Teehee!
My uber close friend Jade's pre-natal check up
turned out very good,
although yea, another two-week bed rest
but I am hoping she could go back to
working ASAP.
She needs moolah, c'mon!


And she had her ultrasound too.
And the gender is.. *tentenentenen!*
BOOOOOY! :)
And she'll name him,
Brylie Jaden.


I was the one who gave
that name.
So maybe we'll call him,
BRY?


Whatever.
Three months to go.
Can't wait.



So there,
after her check up,
we went straight to SSS Diliman branch
to get her SSS I.D.
but unfortunately,
we have to go back this coming Friday.


Another long ride,
P'que to QC. *sobs*
It was fun though.


After that, we both craved
to Red Mango's frozen yoghurt.
So went to Greenbelt 3
to satisfy our cravings.


Mika and Jade's another adventure
ended here.


But while I am typing this entry,
she's sleeping in my bed.
BOO. *haha*


Out of boredom,
we took some pics!