Time: 10:34 PM
Talking to my boyfriend, Brent.
So I know what to diba?
Shut this effin' laptop and go to my room.
KKKKK!



He's shouting na!
So I gotta gooooo!
Mwah!

Some things that make me uber happy!

Simple Japanese dinner with my family :>

My babies! Xienie and Gon Chan playing around.

My shih tzu, Xienie!

Hello kitty stuff! My hello kitty mirror. Hello kitty make up pouch. Lotion, bla bla. This is actually my school bag.

Ohh well, MM told me that first term is extended until the second week of September because of I don't know why. Maybe because of the swine flu.

Anyways, today was a fine day except that I had a very terrible headache this morning. My dad told me to go see a doctor for eyes and check if there's something wrong. Because eye problems also have connections in our headaches so I did what he advised. And boo ya, he was right. My astigmatism went high. Errrrr!


Please doctors, gimme a break. So then after that, my friend Jade went here for the usual Saturday bonding here in our condo. I made Promodoro for our dinner. Jade and my aunt told me it was perfect. Hihihi. Chef Mika, here you come! *smile* I also ate vanilla ice cream. Awww, it totally made my night! :>

Tell me what's missing.

I've been thinking lately if I should be already contented with my life or not.
Listen to my story, and please free to justify.


I am from a good family.
A very good one.
We can't say were uber wealthy but heck, were rich.
This is all honesty, listener.
My dad is an executive in an international company
and I could get all I want.
Yes, all I want.
But I am not that really spoiled
because dad wants to challenge me first before
giving me something that I want.


For example,
I have to present him good grades before
buying me a new ipod.
Stuff like that, you know.


But that's not really what I want.
It's not that I am not thankful.
Of course I am.
But I want a dad who I could go fishing with,
or maybe I could commute with.




I am studying in one of the prestigious schools in the Philippines
and our school has the highest tuition fee offered.
I'm getting a good education.
So?


Yea, I maybe in a the highest society
but the heck,
do you have any idea how fake these people are?
In this kind of crowd,
no money, no friends.
no social life, you're a retard.
BOOO.





I always experience "special treatment"
by people who are "simple".



Gimme a break,
I am also a human.
Treat me like one!




I always have the privilege to eat at fancy restaurants
and even buffets from a 5 star hotel.


And yes,
I can't even eat my favorite fishballs and the yummy isaw
because it's dirty daw.





So tell me? What's missing?

People that I'll always miss. (Will be updated again)

Melanie Grace Ramos

Ma. Angelica Reynoso

Jade Centeno

Ma. Iana Mulingbayan

Bernadette Lirio

Friendship lasts a minute or so.

Jade (closest friend ever!) and I

Badet, Charmaine and Meeee!

Iana, Me, Ara and Nika

Iana and Me again. Ara's face was blurry. (Ugh.)

My ideal friend is myself. I know how true I am. I maybe really clingy, or maybe a miss gossip-here-I-come. But I would never ever bitchslap a friend. Ever since, I have a hard time keeping friends. At first, I thought the problem was in me but heck I was wrong. The fact is, I always choose the wrong "friends", the wrong people. I have few people who's always on my side for ages and I am really thankful that they also prioritize our friendship like I always do. I have a huge problem. Before, I trust people so easily and now? I am scared to trust people. I got trust issues, bigtime! And I know it's not that healthy. I mean, you know. I shouldn't generalize people too much. But hell! A lot of them are fake! Look, even people who are blood-related to me back stabbed me, so what should I do now, huh? Tell me. I am really having a hard time.

Envious Me

I am very proud of him. Prouder than ever. But there are times that I feel insecure about him. He has already started to reach his goals while me, still making a list of it. He's enjoying what he has right now while I am still confuse on what to prioritize. He insults me, laughs and hug me so tight. He's a sweet guy. I never feel so loved like this. But then I feel pity for myself. I still don't know what to do so he could be SO and REAL proud of me. He's proud of me because he LOVES me but I don't want it that way. I want him to be proud of me because of my sucessful accomplished life, like what he has right now. And by that, we could be really called the perfect tandem.