Listen to me God.

I came to the point where I've asked God if he hates me. I am so hurt. I don't want to blame Him for all the things I am experiencing right now but I can't help but to question him. Dear God but why? Why me? I've lost my father 5 months ago and I could honestly say, it still hurts as hell and I am not yet moved on. It is not that easy. I was a daddy's gurl and I love him so much *sighs* and now my boyfriend is sick, I don't want to lose him. He's the only person I could talk to whenever I am sad or happy or whatever mood I have. I can't find someone like him anymore. I love him more than anything in this world. I just can't lose him :(



God, please. Not Brent :(